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My job at the bank is fun. My boss-- the bank manager --is chill... The assistant bank manager is just as chill... and my fellow co-workers (a 60 year old woman and a 20 year old dude) are chill too. Chill is a good word to describe that entire situation it feels like. Adding to this is the fact that I start my bar tending job on Saturday.

It's kind of funny how I got this job too. I had to be REALLY persistent. I had to be more charming than ever. In the end, it got me the gig-- at least for now. They would ask, "Have you ever done it before?" and I'd be like, "Not officially. But Hey, I'm trainable," with a huuuge smile... They found that extremely appealing, ha. End result: A rookie shot at an extremely envied gig. Bar tending is VERY good money. Also, I continued to look at some new cars. I can't get away from the Cadillac Escalades and CTS's. If I can help it, I'll end up with one of those two. I got to go to the mall today too. Bought a case of Aqua de Gio but it was the bonus packet so I got the complimentary shower gel and deodorant with it too. Saved like 30 bucks.

Today, I lip synched to Whitney Houston, K-Ci & Jojo, and Ritchie Valens. My friend found it semi-amusing. I looked for some studio apartments in Fayetteville and it seems as if I found some. Best thing about them is that they are 5 minutes from both of my jobs. Life seems set at the moment. It seems as if I know what the next few months will look like from an income and living standpoint... I just want to know the details. My mood seems to be one of apathy and anxiety mixed together... if thats even possible. Has to be. I feel it now. It's like an apathy of the heart but anxiety of the soul... Vicki's got the strength part handled and the mind is off so I can quit from dwelling on the things that make me insecure.

I hope this makes sense, ha. If it doesn't, Oh well. To all who read (if any)... let us toast to an unknown future. God is good... and also sovereign.