I feel love. I'm scared of it... because I doubt I am capable of doing it right? Which is ridiculous, considering I'm led by the Father in it. However, I also understand how bad I've butchered it thus far in life. Funny thing is... it makes me understand it better? Weird huh. Quick thought, ever notice how you NEVER try to relate to anyone unless something similar happens to you? And when it does, you expect grace abundantly. At minimum, you expect mercy. However... flip the shoes, dropping the experience, and you want justice. Not even just justice, but justice without love. You want YOUR justice. You want an address to the fear you feel inside of your heart for what you don't understand. You want God's right of judgment.
I say this because I can openly say I know the pain of many sinners out there in the realm of marital failures. If your marriage is good, praise God for it. If yours is suffering, pray to God for direction.. if you've made it through suffering and into a wonderful state of grace and love, praise God that much more. And if it fails... seek Him for understanding, restoration and cleansing... THEN praise God.
I'm learning a lot. Mostly about how beautiful life is and how hurtful sin is. All of creation CRIES for a savior... So why do I spend time judging, hating, accusing, manipulating and putting down other members of creation? Love without justice is a form of sickening apathy. Justice without love is a form of bitterness. Creation without grace is purposeless. Merciless is a horrid form of pride. Let our great Lord's mercy drive you to see yourself for what you are: A sinful, broken and hurting member of creation.
